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Saturday, June 5th, 2004

9:14 pm

What's in a name? Description of Your First Name of: Jenny The name Jenny gives you a strongly independent and highly creative nature, with drive and ambition to have experiences and accomplish things out of the ordinary. You can work intently at whatever is new and holds your interest at the moment, but your interest wanes quickly when drudgery and monotony set in. Obstacles to your progress or restrictions on your freedom to act create a sense of frustration which may cause you to feel resentful and even rebellious. You can then become intolerant of others, and caustic and belittling in your expression, thereby imposing stress on your personal relationships. http://www.kabalarians.com/cfm/DisplayNameAnalysis.cfm this pretty much sounds like me... i guess... ive been noticing that i feel frustrated because i cant be myself around my family... and its honestly driving me mad and getting really frustrating... i want to live my life for me... and i want them to accept me... instead of me feeling like im somehow not human, it makes me feel so insecure now... i want to get out of here!! im really stressed out because everything is so unstable and i feel like im at my wits end and i might have at the most 4 good nerves left... im depressed and im tired of everything being so damn disjointed... i feel unstable!! i just want to be able to chill out and feel comfortable!!! agh!!! i think im falling apart at the seams!! >>whimpers<< i wanna relax!!!!!!!!!! i wanna get close to the poeople that i love and enjoy life!!! :'( i just wanna chill!!! :'O <----unfreakin'happy face! :p i miss back in the day when i could sit around with my friends somewhere comfortable where we didnt have to worry about parents and other authority figures and no one had a care in the world... gorwing up sucks and i wanna beat it down with a blunt object! ...ive had some obsession with that lately... ...must be my ideal vision of stress releif at this point! im so unconfortable i dont even know who i am, or what the fuck im supposed to do about it... its a dangerous hole i dont wanna be in... but i cant seem to get myself out of it... i want freedom!!!! i want control of my life... ive lost that in almost every aspect... what little i had to begin with... i cant fuckin' stand it!! i want to go for a long walk outside with someone... but i dont know what to talk about and my mouth is glued shut... why is that? i dont know! my stomach hurts tho and i feel stress!! what makes me so full of fear!? it makes me feel so weak and vulnerable!! i dont like it at all... ive been a sensitive person all of my life up untill recently, and i find that even life asks me to change that... i dont know who i am if i change... i think i am in major crisis right now!! "BLLLLLLLAHHHHHHHH!!!!!" i think ill go ram myself into a door!!!! j/k (inside joke...) (Comment on this)